a letter for loners: life doesn't reach your expectations

You probably have grown up in front of your television, watching your favourite childhood shows that you remember now with nostalgia. Shows where teenagers party all day, hangout with their friends, dress cool and travel around the world. Shows with cool high school with lots of clubs, nice people and lots of fun.

If you were shy as a kid, an introvert or had strict parents, you probably spent your free time playing alone in your room, fantasizing about the day you become a teenager and start living adventures. "Teenage years will be the best time of your life!" You were so excited to go shopping with friends, you thought that when you reached 16 you will become the prettiest girl in the world, you wanted to experience teenage love, don't you remember?

Sadly little you probably never saw their dream come true. Reality sometimes hurts.

Maybe now you don't have a big friend group like you used to think you would as a kid, maybe you just have a couple of friends who you hangout with very rarely or maybe you don't have any friends at all. Maybe you aren't as pretty as you thought you would be when grow up. Maybe you haven't had a bf/gf yet. And if you aren't American your probably felt disappointed to find out high schools don't have clubs activities or a cheerleader team, not even lockers or prom dances! Can you believe it? Life doesn't feel that exciting now.

Let me guess, you are now with your phone rotting in your bed, watching your classmates Instagram stories having fun while you hadn't leave your room for days. "Why can't I be like them?"- You think. You always ask your friends to hang out but they always cancel last moment and you don't know what to do. So you turn your phone off and cry yourself to sleep.

If this is your case I want you to now that there is nothing wrong with feeling bad, life is cruel, life never reaches your expectations and you are in your right to feel upset about it. But I want to remember you that once things get as worse as possible it just can get better, I promise you that from this point things will only get better. 

Think about all the cool things that are waiting for you in the future: Imagine you leave your hometown for college and you move to a cool residence and meet new nice people that match your interests, maybe you have the time of your life in uni! Or maybe you will travel a lot and see lots of cool places, maybe tomorrow you will meet someone that makes you feel special. Life will guide you to where you belong, with the right people if you put by your side.

But for now, the best thing you can do is remember that the world doesn't end in your phone, there are more things outside of your room. Try making plans and if noone wants to do them with you fuck them go by yourself. Take a walk outside by yourself, try a new hobby, try talking with someone you don't know, try new things, what's the worse thing that can happen? I promise you you won't regret, and if things don't go the way you wanted them to go you will learn from your mistakes, everything is about experiences. Once you start thinking about it nothing is really that deep babe.

Life is too short to lock yourself in, I promise you will be okay :)